A little girl's dream

Assalamualaikum blog-gers :)

Today post will be in english okay =) Bukan nak menunjuk , jangan salah faham.

Love never dies.
At first I met you , love is already in the air. I thought I'd love you for only a half of my heart. But I realize I loved too much that I cried when you left me.

I thought you already are happy with your new girl but then you came back. Came back to me. I really wanted to talk to you but I forced myself not too. Never like ever because I know talking to you just makes it worse. I remembered every moment with you. I suddenly remembered I was on the phone with you for 3 times.

I thought it was 2. Its funny you called me really late at night. So I didn't pick it up as I was sleeping. That exact morning , you called again. And you said ...... You said ''I miss you''. Before that I thought you're gonna be mad at me.

Because I like deny going on a date with you. But you weren't mad at me. You just said , I miss you. It touched me of course. Then I said , call me again later. You never did. I'm like a stupid girl just waiting a call from you. Nothing happened.

It was fine. Then finally I online , there was like a chat on fb that you said I miss you , when are you going to come back? I laugh like a crazy girl falling in love x') Pity , it was a long time ago.

Now , I gave you a text. I said you don't have to say sorry anymore. I had forgiven you. You said that you can be mine again if I could wait for you. Well , it was a little too late. You're asking me to wait for you? That's how you wait for me? I really don't know you. I never did understand you.

I finally had no more feelings for you. You came again. You were so sorry and said you were still in love with me. You said that you were so stupid for letting me go. I was shocked when you said you told you're family about us. People said if a boy tells you to your family , he is really serious about you. But I don't think you were serious.

Maybe this is just the beginning of my love story. Half of it is about you. My feelings now? I just miss you. I don't want us to be together. Just be friends. But its just a little girl's dream. I want you to change. I know you're changing.

Note for you ,
Please don't give up. Please don't think its just a waste of your time. Please put a little effort. Maybe , just maybe we have ''jodoh''. Don't put your hopes up. If I have to be honest , yeah I do still love you. But not like I loved you in the past. And yeahh I miss you. You know what? I really want to read your mind. I really want to know how you really feel. I just ... really want to.

If I was a remote control , I would rewind everything and begin again.